Who’s space is this?


She is no bigger than three inches tall and I fell in love with the figurine as soon as I saw it.  She reminded me of my daughter when she was a toddler, always curious, always full of wonder, complete with Pebbles hairstyle.  I just had to buy it.  I found it the other day while decluttering.  I dusted it, reaching tiny spaces with a cotton bud, looked at it and wondered, can I reframe my thoughts of feeling trapped into a feeling of curiosity?

It did start that way but five days in, the idea started to get old, even though I am in my own space.  Trapped because I am only eight days into my self imposed isolation.  I wanted to experience what 14 days of isolation would feel like so I could understand how others feel.  It’s not a nice feeling but reframing constantly, this is an exercise of safety for self and others, brings some comfort and enhances resilience.

In the mornings I feel like I am an animal in the zoo.  The lorikeets watch me through the windows.  The Willy Wagtail goes through a couple of hours of agitation, chit chitting along the windows, and patio, peering at me and buzzing the glass.  I suspect a nest is being built in the mulberry tree.  I experienced the same territorial behaviour two years ago when the bird constantly buzzed me when I went out with laundry.  How tiny they are but at the moment, they are freer than me.  I feel a shift in power and tip toe around my home, making my movements small and slow in submission.

Space is meaningful to me in so many ways.  The space in one’s ‘head’ is specially interesting to me.  Sometimes we create our own zoo of thoughts.  We trap them.  We examine them like they were exotic.  Sometimes we yearn to domesticate them.  Or like the Willy Wagtail, we become territorial about them.  Some we set free and watch them soar, a feeling of relief, a feeling of letting go, like they were ours to set free.  They never were.  They set us free.

I’ve had an idea in my head and would love someone to paint or draw it for me, preferably with charcoal on white paper.  The concept is a simple one.  An open field.  A some visible fence posts.  A single, delicate, barbed wire hanging between the posts.  The art would be called Freedom.  When I think of this concept, I’ve often wondered, which side of the barbed wire do you have to be to experience freedom?

These days, I too am standing on my toes, filled with curiosity thinking about this.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

In response to Word of the Day Challenge – Zoo

9 thoughts on “Who’s space is this?”

    1. Eliza, thank you! Such a wonderful read. I think I’m straddling Stages 2 and 3. My colleague and I jumped on to Stage 1 right away before things tightened as they have. As luck would have it I bought a Pilates reformer just before the crisis and it has been a lifeline. I’m a big believer in making a list of priorities each day and finding self-care seems to surface higher and higher by instinct. Keeping in touch with family and loved ones has never been so rewarding.
      Your reach is long, thank you!

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      1. I’m doing well so far, but am missing face to face company with friends and in yoga class. I’m not all that social, having to be constantly engaged, but I had the right balance worked out and miss it. Happy I have the phone and internet!
        The weather has been cold and rainy, but when the sun does shine it is warm and the small bulbs are slowly emerging. Looks like a good year for crocus– if I get a sunny day, I’ll try to post a photo of them.

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      2. Yes, I’m missing physical touch. My son visited me once for a welfare check and an elbow bump didn’t quite cut it! lol Housework has never felt more calming. 🙂 Keep well and stay safe.

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