Autumn in the Wheatbelt

I decided to leave a bit earlier for Merredin, hoping to get there before dark but, roadworks and a big convoy of road trains for part of the journey slowed me down considerably.  I am so done with roadworks!

It struck me yesterday how nervous I used to be overtaking one of those big trucks even when there was an overtaking lane.  I would never overtake on a country road at any other time.  I’ve learnt to trust these drivers.  They know they hold up traffic and help out other motorists.  Seated high in their rigs they have a good view what’s in the distance.  I’ve learnt their helpful signals, two clicks of an indicator means pass or clicks on the opposite side, means get back in lane.  If there’s no traffic a thank you wave gets a quick high beam.  Communication between strangers who will never meet.DSCN9007.jpgFor the stretch between Cunderdin and Kellerberrin there was just one truck ahead of me. The sun was seated at the horizon.  It was going to be dark soon.  I just had to stop and take a picture.  I love those skies in the Wheatbelt!DSCN9011
I spent a few moments resting.  It was peaceful with sheep in the paddock.  With occasional traffic, it was the silence of solitude that I love so much.

My visit went well.  I’ve been asked to do another talk in six months, so I guess that went well too.

I decided to come home after work instead of spending another night there.  It’s a 3.5 hour journey and I knew it would be dark for some of the way but I would be closer to the city and street lights.  As luck would have it I got delayed at work, and I had already checked out.  I had no option but drive home.  By the time I got to Kellerberrin, there was haze from burn off and dust from winds.  Visibility was poor but the sunset was spectacular.  A massive blood red sun that seemed to get bigger as it slipped from view.  I just could not find a safe enough spot to take a picture so I just experienced the moment instead.

Although the weather has been warmer for autumn, the landscape is welcoming a cooler change around the Wheatbelt.DSCN8987.jpg
There are chocolate shards peeling off gum trees in Narrogin.
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This trunk was so tactile.  You could feel the life of this big tree in every ripple and indentation.  It made me think, one can never say they are alone when they are with trees.  They are a silent presence in my moments of solitude.  They are a perfect partner for me!DSCN8983.jpg
The fallen gum nuts created moments of still life photography of what once was, and still is, beautiful.  They made me watch my footsteps and walk mindfully.  A teaching moment here, too.DSCN9017.jpg
Outside my chalet window, the textures and colours of a young tree, distracted me.  Who could blame me?

I’m home where I’m also happy.  The major renovations are done.  I need to get the painting sorted.  The colours will come from nature’s palette.  I’m starting to embrace this house as my home.  I can envisage what I want with clarity.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

Laundry day

This is an early memory of childhood.

Every Tuesday my mother would sit in the front room, an area we called the verandah because of its latticed ‘windows’.  She would sit with a pad and pen and tick off a list.  Sheets, pillowslips, shirts, pants, school uniforms with the pleats neatly pressed.  The edges sharp enough to slash silk.  The linen was whiter than white, crisp and lightly starched.  We always had way too much linen.  My mother would insist the sheets were changed twice a day.  The afternoon siesta was mandatory for all.  And, sheets had to be white, the coolest she thought for hot Indian summers.  The clothing was discreetly marked in a corner with indelible ink. The ironing was done in an iron iron!  It had a top that flipped back, filled with coal and then used on the clothes.  No electricity!  There were no sprays or softeners.  Clothes were hammered over rocks and yet never ruined.

The elderly woman would arrive with her grandson.  He rode alongside her with the laundry box strapped to his bike.  She would sit silently as my mother would go through the clothes that were returned, ticking off her list.  When my mother finished, the elderly woman would sniff her disdain at the need for inventory.

We never lost a piece of clothing.  Ever.

As I write this, the memory of laundry day is vivid.  The child in me also remembers the dirty laundry.

My relationship with my mother was fraught with struggle. Those who knew and loved her and enjoyed her largesse would tut tut at my indiscretion airing this piece of dirty laundry.

The sadness for me is that my father died when I was young.  He never got to see me as an adult.  My mother did.  And, through the lens of disappointment.

If we had to do it all over again, it would be a rewind of the past.  She would still be who she was.  I would still be me.  And, I’m okay with that.  I know my father would be okay with that too.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

 

Cue from a cormorant

We had some rain last night and it is still grey outdoors.  I have a long drive East to the Wheatbelt today and I’ve been checking on the weather reports periodically.  I dislike driving through a storm cell there.  They can be intense.

I realised this morning I’m supposed to give a talk tomorrow and it slipped off my radar.  I’ll have to wing it.  I’m done with stats and will go with facts instead.  How am I this calm about it?!  I’ll have hours in the car to put it together in my mind, I keep telling myself.  The subject is something I’m passionate about, so the task ahead is restraint, not overkill.  DSCN6797.jpgPublic speaking is a fear experienced by most.  As a student, it made my knees go weak, my throat dry and my voice, even softer.  I recall the first presentation I made in my undergraduate years to a full class.  At the time I worked at the university too and asked Security if I could access the lecture room over the weekend.  I stood in an empty room and was in a state of panic over the thought of it being filled with people.  I thought of strategies to overcome this.  I was using a behavioural strategy to some degree (exposure) but the trigger was visual.  So I decided to give the talk without wearing my contacts and told the audience I could not see beyond the first three rows, so if they had a question, they would have to call out instead of raising their hand.  It worked a treat!  I gave my talk without a stumble and went on to present a paper at a conference in Washington DC before I graduated, not that I’m clever, I was passionate about my research.  I ended up walking away from it after I graduated.

Passion is good if it lights a fire that doesn’t consume.  That work was consuming me.  It was in every corner of my home.  One day I started collecting all my journals and paperwork and placed them in the middle of the lounge room.  I watched it for a few days and then decided, like one does, this relationship is not going to work.  It took courage to do this.  Doesn’t it always to end something?  I had invested nearly ten years of my life in this.  But, something had to give.

Since then I’ve learned how to exercise restraint.  I’ve learnt how to practice including all views and finding a common ground.  It is the art of win-win.  I’m still a novice at this and tomorrow I’ll need the practice.

Tomorrow I’ll take my cue from a cormorant.  I love how they spread their wings as soon as they get wet, a ‘come all ye faithful’ pose without a flock.  An inclusive gesture for a solitary bird.

I know what I have to say tomorrow may not fall on ears that are receptive.  My views may not align with theirs.  But, I do know I can make the offer, the gesture, even if it is an audience of one.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

A Birthday Reflection

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I’ll be celebrating a significant birthday this month.  It seems to be giving me pause for many reasons.  I would love to write about it but the words just don’t seem to reflect how I’m feeling. Maybe I’ll write about it at a later date.  At times like this, I reach for the work of Anne Morrow Lindbergh.  I found this poem that seems to articulate how I feel.

Bare Tree
Already I have shed the leaves of youth,
stripped by the wind of time down to the truth
of winter branches. Linear and alone
I stand, a lens for lives beyond my own,
a frame through which another’s fire may glow,
a harp on which another’s passion, blow.

The pattern of my boughs, an open chart
spread on the sky, to others may impart
its leafless mysteries that I once prized,
before bare roots and branches equalized,
tendrils that tap the rain or twigs the sun
are all the same, shadow and substance one.
Now that my vulnerable leaves are cast aside,
there’s nothing left to shield, nothing to hide.

Blow through me, Life, pared down at last to bone,
so fragile and so fearless have I grown!

Anne Morrow Lindbergh (www.poemhunter.com)

Yes, “so fragile and so fearless have I grown” is a double edged sword that is increasingly a burden too heavy, sums it up for me today.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

Foxes Lair, in autumn

Well! another month I didn’t get to Narrogin by afternoon.  I found myself wanting to complete just one more chore before I left home and didn’t factor in all the roadworks along the way that slowed me down considerably.  By the time I got to the tiny farming town of Williams I was stretched for time.  It was already dark. The main road is undergoing major works and it was a tight squeeze getting past town not knowing where the detour was taking me.

The stretch of road, some 30 kms, between Williams and Narrogin is flanked by farms and woodlands.  Kangaroo and foxes are a danger here and when the speed limit is 110 km/hour, it is hazardous driving for someone unfamiliar with these roads at night.  It was pitch dark.  I felt like I was the only person left on earth.

Next morning I resisted the urge to go to Foxes Lair as I needed to catch up on work.  But, my heart was there and I wondered what awaited me.  (By the way delayed gratification works!  I was able to meet my goals!).DSCN8924.jpgThere was enough rain overnight to wash my car clean.  I also knew the bush reserve of Foxes Lair would have loved the rain.  It looked fresh and the perfume of gum trees and rain … just delicious.DSCN8892.jpgThe banksia was in autumn colours of copper and gold. DSCN8875.jpgThe delicate manna acacia leaves were perfectly frilled and framed by barbed wire.DSCN8945.jpg The ringneck parrots were high in the gum trees and came down lower after they got used to my presence.  This one was a juvenile.  I loved the tail feather!DSCN8935.jpgThe parrots love gum nuts and I’ve gone used to the shower when I walk under them.  It can rain gum nuts when there is a flock feasting.  They do hurt when they hit the head!DSCN8886.jpgThey can be quite bold.  This one took time to come closer after a period of peekaboo.DSCN8960.jpgI watched how they picked up the gum nuts with their claw and ate it.  This one did the same with tiny fragments it found.  How intelligent they are!DSCN8881.jpg
Busted with gum nut in beak!DSCN8975.jpg
The adult is quite large.  There were about a dozen near where I stood.DSCN8964.jpg
This one was a juvenile and ate with manners.  Yes, it was a stretch of imagination, but I was waiting for the ‘pinky’ to be raised, high tea style!

Home tonight and then back out to the Eastern Wheatbelt.  More driving and looks like there will be storms too.  Not looking forward to that at all.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

The black crowned night heron

It is said successful people are good at delayed gratification.  I watched a night heron at dawn when I was in Carnarvon and wondered if this is true for birds, too.DSCN8691.jpg
On the mud flats I saw a shape I didn’t recognise and zoomed in to find a black crowned night heron.  DSCN8728.jpg
Low on his haunches, it stalked the puddles.DSCN8759.jpg
Then he went to the open waters and sat still at the edge.  The river mullets skidded over water, just out of reach.  He watched intently.DSCN8762.jpg
He watched and waited then gave up and returned to where he started.DSCN8722.jpg
He ignored the tiny crabs of which there were thousands.DSCN8705.jpg
And then in an instant his neck extended almost longer than the length of his body.  He caught a mud skipper and swallowed it whole.

The patience of this bird was remarkable.  I nearly clapped and shouted “bravo”!

My camera is charging and I’m packing for another trip tomorrow.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

When a day transforms …

Returning home later than I would have liked due to a delayed flight, I was tired when I got to bed.  Unusually tired.  I dared myself to reflect knowing when I am most vulnerable, I am brutally honest with myself.  It’s times like this I question the choices I’ve made in my personal life.  If left unchecked my thoughts take me to places I should not visit.  Having completed one too many trips this year, I had to face the truth.  I’m no spring chicken.  That was harsher reality I would liked to have faced and nothing to do with vanity.  It meant something had to change when I love all aspects of my working life, which, although strenuous, I have adopted the mind set, this is my calling.

I go to places where others don’t or can’t go but in a system of universal health care, I believe that equality is demonstrated in practice.  If people cannot come to me for whatever reason, and I’m able to go to them, I do.  Does it leave me at times, especially at night, exhausted?  For sure.  But when I wake, my spirit is rested, my body uncoils and I spring into action because I believe what I do is honoring the commitment I made years ago.

I’ve just returned from the Midwest.  We were busy with a full schedule.  I like my work there as I team up with someone I enjoy working with.  We often say how lucky we are to be doing the work we do and importantly, enjoy what we do.  Working with someone like this makes the load easier.

Catching the last plane out, I had more time on my hands so I planned to complete the endless pending reports but before I sat down to do this, I decided to go out and take some pictures.  I’m glad I did.DSCN8861
I see symbolism in the trees in Geraldton.  The trees in this region continue to grow despite experiencing a stiff breeze all the time.  And, when growth stops, the trees lean but never break, they are poised in silent dance with a challenging partner.  Aren’t we all?
DSCN8846I watched seagulls for a while and their beautiful glass eyes and their sleek profile and wondered if I am the only person who sees the beauty in them?
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The sea shimmered in the afternoon sun at St Georges Beach.  A young woman stepped out of the water, and as her car was parked next to mine, she started to talk to me.  She was from the other side of Australia and mentioned having grown up near a beach, she always seeks the water at least once a day.  She thought I was a tourist and I told her I was working that day but took time off to breathe.  “What’s there to see if you’re not in the water?” she asked me with youthful curiosity.  A water nymph!  A mermaid on land!  She towelled her hair vigorously, her question almost a dare that was softened with laughter.  I see seagulls, shimmering sea and leaning trees, I told her.  My face must have changed expression when I said this.  She looked around her and said, “oh yeah!” slowly like she had just noticed the landscape.  She told me she could see what I could see and that she could see photography was my ‘water’.  She also laughed and said, she would never look at a seagull the same way again after I had highlighted the beauty I see in them!  The encounter was just what I needed.  My prayer each time I set foot outdoors is to show me something beautiful that I can share with others.  Yesterday afternoon, my prayers were answered again.

This morning the home was silent and cool.  I made a list of things to do.  I’m not sure how it’s possible, but the list seemed longer than yesterday.  I went to the kitchen to get  coffee to rev up my day when I saw a gift given to me about two years ago had transformed.thumb_IMG_4640_1024.jpgThe hoya plant is beautiful.  I had one years ago that was a prolific bloomer and given to me as a cutting by an elderly lady who later passed on.  I treasured it but my elderly gardener did not know the sentiment and inadvertently destroyed it.  For some reason I never bought one again to replace it even though I love the blooms.  Then two years ago another lady gave me a cutting quite spontaneously from her garden.  Protected from my gardener, it has been sitting at the kitchen window, a bare stem with two leaves.  The hoya flowers bloom all year and are not seasonal.

This morning, on a cool autumn day, the gift bloomed and brought spring indoors.  I feel youthful, once more.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

Carnarvon, Coral Coast

I flew to Carnarvon on Sunday.  With a cyclone further north I was not looking forward to the trip in a small plane but surprisingly, it was a pleasant flight.  We disembarked into a hot day and even hotter the next day (40 degrees celsius).

I do what I always do in Carnarvon.  Check in, buy fruit and water before the only supermarket closes for the day, and then head out to Pelican Point.  I love the sand and sea there.  It helps restore me to where I want to be.DSCN8611.jpgThe sand drift creates amazing dunes.  I’ve posted a pic in the previous post.  I sit for a few minutes enjoying the sea sculpt the land around me and then from the safety of my car (from all that sand), I love zooming in.  I know on busy days we love a beach walk, but did you know you walk on a bejewelled carpet?DSCN8617.jpgThe kite surfers loves this beach for the strong winds.  I just love it for what it is.  A shimmering sea.DSCN8619.jpgAs the day wound down I saw a grandmother fishing.  It flooded me with emotion.  She sat on a chair while wetting a line, the grandchildren were curious and ran around but checked in every few minutes.  A circle of security unfolding before me and such a wonderful memory for the grandchildren, of time spent with her.  I never knew my grandmothers, so I experienced this moment with a sense of joy and sadness.DSCN8622.jpgThe sunset across the water, where you’ll find Pelican Point, is always stunning.DSCN8630.jpgAnd, in the morning, the water is like glass.DSCN8668.jpgI love the mangroves as the waters recede.  I know the waterbirds love it too.  I don’t know how but I managed to see the tiny shoveller and got some beautiful pics.  For now, I’ll just share one with you.DSCN8646.jpgThe waterbird seemed more interested feeding on mud skippers than the crabs of which there were thousands.DSCN8739.jpgHad the crabs not been moving, I would not have seen them either.  In some places they looked like a carpet being lifted as they crawled across undulating mud flats.

I returned home yesterday to the usual flurry of home tasks.  I woke at 5 am this morning.  The home was dark and silent as I walked among familiar shadows.  The traffic on the freeway was still faintly audible, despite the distance from home.  The birds were not yet awake.  I drank a cup of coffee and planned the morning, the usual plan for home, laundry, tidy up, pay bills etc.  It’s a different gear shift.

I’m off again today, this time to the Midwest, and to experiences I love there too.  I hope to bring back some of those, to share with you.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird