Last day of autumn

I’ve spent half of autumn in mining country north.  I’ve enjoyed this more than I can say.
DSCN7422.JPGI’ve enjoyed the gum trees road side along the highway in the Goldfields.  Gorgeous sky line.DSCN7403.JPGI took a lunch break at the lookout overlooking Lake Lefroy, a large salt lake near East Kambalda.DSCN7407.JPGOh! the colours of this landscape!DSCN7140.JPGAnd despite the big trucks, open skies, magnificent landscape and ‘earthy miners’, I managed to find this.  Invisible to the naked eye, I zoomed in to a speck thinking it was an insect, only to find it to be an exquisite flower.

Much like finding the tiny flower, there are other unexpected pleasures.  I’m going out to dinner tonight.  It will be nice to have company instead of eating alone.  Dinner and drinks sounds just about what I need right now, before winter kicks in tomorrow.  I’m not ready for it.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

 

 

 

Written in lines

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Cape Gooseberry, yet to fruit in my garden.DSCN7354.jpg
Whitebreasted woodswallows, in the Kimberley region.  Keeping together.DSCN8593.jpg
Love lines in the sand, Carnarvon, Western AustraliaDSCN9789.jpg
Solo mother, doing it for herself.thumb_IMG_1851_1024.jpg
Camel lines on Cable Beach, Broome, Western Australia.

Hurried post.  Hope you enjoy!

As always

a dawn bird

In response to Judy Dykstra-Brown’s Photo Challenge:  All Lined Up

Going with the ‘flow’ …

I’ve been doing some reading on the work of Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi who espoused the psychological theory of ‘flow’.  Much like mindfulness, flow is about being fully present in the moment.  It appeals to me more than mindfulness.  Flow is about generating a spark.  It ignites.  In a moment of inaction, it generates movement, it is fluid.  One becomes all.  All becomes one.  All falls away.  There is no ego in that moment.

Photography does this for me.DSCN7349.jpg
I need moments like this every day.  To me, they are as vital as breath.DSCN7373.jpg
I need big skies over me.  I am humbled and in awe of this.DSCN7367.jpg
To be one with this leaves me wordless.DSCN7377.jpg
There are times I am so still, I forget to exhale.

The best part is when what I’m experiencing in the moment, is visible to someone else who has seen it many times but never experienced it.  It is a moment of intimacy, like no other.  It ignites.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

In response to RDP : Tuesday – Spark

Come fly with me …

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It’s late as I write
I should be in bed
tomorrow I fly again
this time, north
where the dust is red
and pink frangipani bloom
outside the door
I won’t be alone
you’ll be with me
watching the silent heron
as it catwalks through mudflats
and as always, waterside
waiting
for sunrise and sunset
then, I’ll be home soon,
too soon,
with stars for eyes
waiting
for the ascent, again.

a dawn bird

Invisible, no more …

DSCN7078 2.JPGNature’s depression
that confusion and distortion
descends by stealth at night
sometimes, preceded by warning
take heed, nothing will be familiar
Be wary,
The monochrome of grey
Where all is same but isn’t
Will become the norm
Ignore at your peril
which I did.
It took a brighter sun to break through
It warmed the earth where I stood
in bare feet or in boots
as the fog lifted,
I closed my eyes so I could see
and found,
in those dark days of invisibility
the trees continued to breathe for me.

a dawn bird

In response to Word of the Day Challenge:  Fog

Virtual reality

DSCN7152 2.JPGSunset, Back Beach, Bunbury, Western Australia

Letter to Steve

Grief torched my life in the years before I met you.  You helped me refocus.  You helped me find my voice, my creativity and a sense of purpose.  Five years later, I lost it all in one fell scoop.  The light you brought into my world was too bright.  The memory of your vibrancy made me flinch for years.  I averted my gaze whenever I drove alongside Back Beach.  I buried myself whole into work.  Last night I walked along where you once jogged.  It was magnificent at sunset as it often is.  As I walked I realised you were meant to come into my life for a reason.  I am where I am, because of you.  Today, this is my reality.

I looked for a relationship unsuccessfully with another academic in the years that followed.  It was a natural thing to do, after all, I had been married to one and then met you.  Life is either crazy or just plain contrary.  What followed was so not what I thought it would be.

It was 17 years after your death when I found photography.  It helped me see the world around me in new ways.  What was familiar was unfamiliar, and then familiar again.  I found shapes, patterns, colours and movements.  A rhythm. I started to write again.   I looked for clouds and rain, because, together, they meant rainbows and not a banal weather report that dictated my work schedule.

My work life is nothing you and I could ever have envisaged.  I don’t present papers around the world like you did but I do spend more time at an airport.  It has become an office.  I find a quiet spot in the lounge and get work done.  This is where life started to get strange.

Had it not been for my camera I would not have noticed the imperceptible glint in the gaze.  The casual look that is exchanged between strangers, and maintained for a fraction longer.  You did not know the logistically challenging rostered world of FIFO workers, if you did, you would have grinned and said, what followed was meant to be.  The gaze turned into a conversation and my dormant heart found a beat again.

He is no academic.  He barely finished high school and so proud of his TAFE achievement because he makes a good living from it.  His nails are not manicured.  His hands are rough and stained from hard work.  He barely reads the news headlines, let alone a book.  His views on politics are succinct, and expressed in the vernacular of the region, “Effing wankers, the lot of them!”  End of story.  There is no malice in his reference, “Miss Fancy Pants!” as he curls his finger around pearls.  He is sensitive and sensual for a man who works with earth on his hands.  Nor do I feel what I do is diminished by his inability to understand it when he says, “what is it that you actually do?”.  What you see is what you get with him.  He travels light.  His values can be endearingly old fashioned, at times.  We admit to nothing.  The unsaid, saying it all.  Things are just what they were, at first ignite.  Alive.  Unfinished.  Unended.  It makes pick up where we left off, easier.  I like what this gives me.  There are no tomorrows or happily ever afters.  I searched for those for far too long.  For me, they were an unfortunate myth.  I live in the moment now.  It’s a happy place to be.

He is no blinding light in my life, like you were.  He lights up my world for a moment, much like seeing a shooting star, and when we leave, the eternal hope, it will happen again.

Where ever you are, here’s to another morning … shine bright.  What was, and what is, is meant to be.

a dawn bird

In response to Word of the Day Challenge:  Virtual

‘Shinrin-yoku, (‘forest bathing’)

 

I could not wait to drive out of the city yesterday and left Perth around 3 pm.  Much to my dismay construction has devoured a portion of the road I usually take to the highway and I spent half an hour travelling through the detour.  I finally got back on the highway and caught slow traffic.  The drive at dusk kept me alert but what was amazing was the skyline.  The area had controlled burning earlier in the day and the colours across the horizon was nothing I’ve seen before.  There were heavy low clouds in colours of mauve, taupe, lavender, pink, orange, and umber even.  As it was getting darker by the minute I could not stop for photographs and night came too suddenly.  I started to get anxious enough to turn off the music and focus on my driving.  Albany Highway is not a road I enjoy driving.  It is littered with roadside crosses, a sombre reminder of the dangers of a narrow, winding road.  I was hoping roadworks at the entry to the small farming town of Williams had been cleared but no, the roads are still ripped up.  I drove in cautiously and then had another 30 kms or so of dark road flanked by farms before I got to my destination.  I was so tense by the time I got to my hotel.  I had a shower and went to bed without dinner and slept fitfully.  DSCN7045.JPGThe sunrise was glorious.  I sipped coffee while tucked in bed and watched the sun melt the meringue mist that hung over the town.  I still felt exhausted and unwell and wondered how I was going to function in a day that was fully booked.  Then I remembered reading an article on a flight about ‘forest bathing’, a Japanese therapy, Shinrin-yoku, that developed in the 1980s when people were dying from working too hard.  The concept is simple as it is complex.  Essentially one is among trees, among nature, in a mindful way.  I decided to try it.  It was cold this morning so I dressed in layers and headed to Foxes Lair.DSCN7068The reserve is lush in winter green.  It was quiet and I was the only one walking around.  My steps were slow.  My movements slower.  I took it all in.  The kookaburras chortle grew more distant as I walked away from it. The parrots flew in and when they left, the honeyeaters and silvereye swarmed high above my head.  I wanted to do nothing but just absorb the energy of the moment.  I walked around for half an hour.  I was rejuvenated and renewed.  I returned to my hotel, completed half a report and then headed to work.

I have worked a whole day with barely a break and completed the report I started this morning.  I cannot believe it was only yesterday morning I felt so depleted of energy,

Is there some truth in the benefits of Shinrin-yoku?  All I can say, if you experience a flat spot, find a verdant corner somewhere and let your body drink it in, sip by delicate sip.  I’d be interested to hear if it had the same positive impact on you as it had on me.

In response to RDP – Monday: Verdant