Ballerinas, in the bush

I had never thought to look for wild orchids in Helms Arboretum, Esperance.  I usually park here for a few minutes when I visit the town to enjoy the parrots in the tall gum trees and to catch a few minutes alone.  But having read a blog recommended by Tracy (Reflections of an Untidy Mind), I walked around instead of staying in my car.

Wild orchids love debris of leaves and fallen logs.  So do snakes.  Dugites look like fallen twigs.  They are deadly and agile.  Spring time is their time.  Maybe that explains why I have never walked around here before.  But I was prepared this time for bush walking and dressed in my best protective gear.  I stepped off the plane to here.

DSCN7548.jpgTo the novice, this is just rubble.  Not me.  My heart raced as I walked around.  I anticipated seeing some wild orchids, just as the blog had published.DSCN7108.jpgSoon I found the first orchids.  DSCN7303.jpgTiny bulbs.  I had never seen orchid bulbs before.DSCN7305.jpgThe donkey orchids bloomed, stained like tortoise shells, in their hundreds.DSCN7279.jpgAmong the grass there were spider orchids.DSCN7269.jpgOh! so graceful in bud!DSCN7268.jpgWhen blooming, they danced around, ta da ing their way across grass and rubble.DSCN7275.jpgTheir heart, exquisite.DSCN7124.jpgSome bloomed in trios, each more graceful than their neighbour, in still posture.DSCN7337.jpgI headed over to the Lookout where there is a steep gradient over granite rock to bush land below.  I’ve found white sugar orchids here before, so I went looking.  I wasn’t disappointed!DSCN7549.jpgThere were some that were stronger in colour.  Each detail so perfect in dusk light.DSCN7355.jpgOthers, tinted white.DSCN7360.jpgAnd others, deep in the bush, barely pink.

I have no other words to describe these orchids, other than ballerinas, because they dance so gracefully, in the breeze.

They lit up my heart, eyes and mind.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

PS Thank you Tracy!

 

 

 

 

In spring, my steps are slow

Yesterday I spent the first three early hours of the day in Foxes Lair in Narrogin.  I barely walked two kilometers as there was so much to see.DSCN9972.jpgThe Lair was a florist shop.  There are thousands of flowers and different species every few steps.  Instead of rubber necking, I decided to explore one side of the track before exploring the other.   I also decided to look for the smaller flowers that the eye can barely see.DSCN9998.jpgI found tiny purple tassle flowers.DSCN9949.jpgBlue lechenaultia blooming in some corners.DSCN7060.jpgWhile others responded more slowly to sunlight.  Blue and purple flowers are more difficult to see in dense bushland where white, pink and yellow are dominant colours in spring.DSCN7079.jpgI spent a lot of time with the exquisitely tiny paper everlasting flowers.  They are barely visible to the naked eye.DSCN7090.jpgThey love the sun and open at first rays before one’s eyes.DSCN7092.jpgHow cute is this?DSCN7089I loved the white flowers too, interspersed among the pinks.DSCN9992The tiny pink fairy orchids were scattered here and there.DSCN7084.jpgThe sundew were less frequently seen this month.  I love these flowers.DSCN9953.jpgThe hakea tassle flowers were frosting large bushes, white with pink tips.DSCN9990.jpgI found this beautiful white orchid, demurely blooming behind a log.DSCN7029.jpgI thought this was moss but it looks like a succulent of some kind.DSCN9979.jpgThis was the only pimelea I found during my walk.  Beautiful!DSCN7036.jpgI heard a squawk above my head, only to find a young redcap parrot, all ruffled to greet the day.DSCN7056.jpgWhile another young parrot groomed nearby.DSCN7051.jpgOn the ground, the red breasted robin kept me company.

I’m now off to the Great Southern region and when I return, I hope to have, more of the same.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

Take Five

It was cold in the Wheatbelt town of Merredin.  I woke to find I was curled up tight in the womb of my warm bed.  I turned the heater on and leapt back into bed while I listened to the freight train roll by, rattling windows in the cabin, and let my thoughts travel too.

I recently stopped at a small cafe run by a retired couple in a small farming town.  She makes the best sandwiches!  And, her lemon curd tartlets are out of this world!  It was too early in the morning when I got there for me to justify buying baked goods, so I chatted to them while they made me breakfast.  The cafe also has a small shop attached to it.  It would appear the locals put things like jams and embroidered napkins there on consignment. So I wandered around while talking to them.

An old boot caught my eye.  It had a tag attached to it.  “$20 donation for Give Cancer the Boot”.  It turns out someone’s daughter was recently diagnosed with breast cancer.  The town has rallied to raise money.  Sprayed bright pink, the old boot belongs to a farmer who brought it in, with flower, to add to the money raising effort.

thumb_IMG_3604_1024.jpgThe boot sits outside my study window.  It reminds me life is fragile, and living in community makes one stronger.  I take time to talk to strangers.  They love to talk about their community, I’ve found.  Like the old boot that no longer dances, but the story of its new life, can still make a heart sing.  So I consciously and mindfully live life closer to the source and Source.DSCN9631.jpgThe clump of snowdrops at my doorstep has grown, having arrived three weeks later than they did last year.  They seem to have survived another year of my old gardener’s enthusiasm for clearing flower beds and his failing eyesight!.  I looked through dozens of flowers and found myself wanting to see what was under the hood.  Now I know!thumb_IMG_3600_1024.jpgIn the back garden the Cape Gooseberry is fruiting.  I love this fruit and they hardly ever stay long enough on the bush without me picking off the lanterns while still green.  I found this one on the ground, encased in gossamer, the detail, exquisite.DSCN9803.jpgI know while bush walking, there are tiny flowers and foliage to search for and delight in.  I also know some folks are intent on the walk itself, and miss what my eyes search for.  I also know that’s their journey, not mine.  So I let them walk by.DSCN9780.jpgWhat I search for in bush country, are the tiny wild orchids that grow in impossible places.  They remind me of a plaque I have in my study “Bloom where God plants you”.DSCN9799.jpgThis year the orchids are prolific.  DSCN9756I love the detail of these delicate orchids that seem to bloom in harsh conditions, with attitude!  If this is not a diva presence, I’m not sure what is!DSCN9819.jpgAnd who can walk past the beautiful banksia and not stop to marvel at this wonderful plant.  I love the symmetry of the prickly leaves too.DSCN9836.jpgThere are tassle plants growing everywhere and after uploading the photograph, I can see the details, hidden to the naked eye.  I’ve come to learn through photography, beauty is often sensed and not always seen, until later.DSCN9993.jpgThese are mallee and gum trees.  The mallee is like a gangly teenager, with out of proportion limbs and leaves.  Or, so I thought.  DSCN9996.jpgWhen I stood under it, I had to ask myself, how did I miss this before?DSCN9913.jpgYes spring is here.  The turnip weed flowers are everywhere alongside roads and highways.  The soft canola, is painted across the landscape in broad strokes of vivid yellow.

This is just a view.  A fleeting view.  Pedestrian, if you like.  Just like life.  Unless one stops long enough to cherish living a full and meaningful one.

So, promise yourself today to take five.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

 

 

 

 

Nature’s oeuvre 1/2

Focused on getting to my destination in failing light and blinding rain I failed to see the world around me.  How often do we do this?  I know I did this more than I should have in the past two days.  Had I not reminded myself to live more mindfully, I would have missed a lot more.

It is officially spring in the Southern Hemisphere, in two days.  There’s so much to look forward to especially after I discovered the joys of wildflowers.  How did I live in ‘The Wildflower State’ for decades and not notice the beauty that recurs each year, unfailingly?

The ebb and flow of Nature’s oeuvre, is to be enjoyed moment to moment and not season to season.  I have learnt to put brakes on, slow down and live in the here and now.  Foxes Lair has taught me, flowers bloom, when it is their time.  DSCN9641.jpgFifty kilometers from town, I noticed the sun was setting to my left and a huge moon rose from behind a grove of trees on my right.  Startled by the silent luminosity, I had to stop to take a picture.  The presence of it in the sky calmed my spirit.  There was benevolence in the light.  The only motorist on the road, I slowed down, no longer alone in poor weather.DSCN9855.jpgNext morning I walked around the reserve.  I’m usually alone here so I claim this as mine each time I visit!  Winter has left it lush with bright yellow daubes of acacia everywhere.DSCN9680.jpgA closer look at the spikes of flowers is worth the moment of quiet.DSCN9763.jpgI stood in a ‘forest’ of banksia.  These ones are quite different to anything I’ve seen elsewhere.DSCN9764.jpgThey are a beautiful tumeric colour with the tip, dipped in white.  A ‘ta da’ moment comes to mind!DSCN9813.jpgI’ve learned to look at my footsteps.  No longer afraid of snakes (although I’m still snake aware), I’ve learnt to read the footprints of others.  Parrots!  So I look up.DSCN9895This must have been a young one trying his best to make ‘parrot calls’, and not quite getting there.  Yet!DSCN9653.jpgThe clumps of hibbertia are everywhere.  They are bright in debris that gathers at the base of the gum trees.DSCN9881.jpgI love this hakea that grows like giant kebabs with flowers blooming intermittently between spiky, sharp leaves.

I’m time poor today and will try and complete this before I head out again.

Until then

As always

a dawn bird

 

A time for reflection

 

I worked a long day yesterday.  By night I needed reflection.DSCN8717.jpgI went where I had lunch one afternoon.  There’s a cafe to the right of this with beautiful views over water.  But no, I wanted to be in the scrub!  To my delight the place was teeming with birds.  I know them well enough by the call.DSCN8571.jpgI found a tiny male zebra finch with wisdom in his eyes.DSCN8567.jpgThen there was the female finch.  She flew up, caught the blade of grass in her beak and slid down, showering grass seeds on the ground.  She then fed in privacy in the tall grass.  Clever!DSCN8519.jpgEver watchful, high in thick scrub, were a pair of rainbow bee eaters.  Aloof, silent, predatory.DSCN8584.jpgThe yellow honey eaters, feasted on flowers, their maniacal laughter-like call, harsh, for such a pretty bird.DSCN8618.jpgWith ‘lipsticked lips’ pursed tightly shut, the Pacific Gull was dignified in defeat as silver sea gulls stole lunch and flew away screeching. DSCN8635.jpgThe Brahminy kite (I think), from the highest vantage point, watched all, then flew away silently.

Reflections on my experiences last night gave me a new understanding, life is not the journey we are given, but how we choose to travel.  I recalled this in a poem which says it better, so I’d like to share it with you today …

A Strong Woman vs a Woman of Strength
A strong woman works out every day to keep her body in shape …
but a woman of strength builds relationships to keep her soul in shape.

A strong woman isn’t afraid of anything …
but a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of fear.

A strong woman won’t let anyone get the better of her …
but the woman of strength gives the best of herself to everyone.

A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future …
A woman of strength realises life’s mistakes can also be unexpected blessings, and capitalises on them.

A strong woman wears a look of confidence on her face …
but a woman of strength wears grace.

A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey …
but the woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong.
(Author Unknown) cited in a book ‘The Voice of Silence’ by Oonagh Shanley Toffolo.

May all the steps you take today, make you stronger.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

In the company of robins

Each morning I shivered as I dressed in layers.  The temptation to be among nature overrode the discomfort.  On my last morning my appointment was earlier so I planned to skip my walk and have a leisurely breakfast, pack and check out instead.  The first tweet I heard, changed my plans.  Just like that!

DSCN8033.jpgI went for a quick walk and when I returned to the property, something fell from the tree in front of me.DSCN7863.jpgA pair of white breasted robins.  DSCN8053.jpgOne was friendly and stayed with me.  Or perhaps, I was following.DSCN8054.jpgThe delight of company!DSCN8052.jpgBoth equally curious about the other.DSCN8051.jpgMy hands shook with delight so I tried hard to relax, so did the robin.DSCN7890.jpgIt hopped and flew all around me.DSCN7893The other hid behind pots but managed one shy look, and retreated again.

I spent no more than twenty minutes outdoors.  It renewed me.

I’m back at home in the city.  This morning I went outdoors and wandered in a bleak winter garden.  I found a honeyeater’s tiny nest in a tree.  There’s always something to delight the eye, if you seek it.  That has become my philosophy.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

Full circle

via Daily Prompt: Forest

Encouraged in childhood to achieve academically, my parents would tell me to focus on the bigger picture and not get caught up with minutae.  I followed their advice into adulthood.  I saw the forest and lived among invisible trees.

Not any more.

I take time each day to see the smaller things.  They don’t obstruct my goals or views.  If anything, they enhance my thinking and bring joy to my day.  I’ll share some pictures that I’ve shared before to illustrate what I mean.

On a cold and rainy morning in Esperance I headed out to Lake Warden where the sunrise over it is beautiful.  I had about a minute before the sun rose when a ute approached me on a narrow country road.  His speed generated a flurry between the cars and forced me to slow down.  I was annoyed at having lost a few precious seconds when I glanced out the car window.  The delight at what I saw made me switch off the engine and forget about the sunrise.

DSCN8342On the road beside me were several inland thornbill, given their size, they are also affectionately known as ‘button bums’.  Had I not been forced to slow down, I would have missed this beautiful moment of shared joy.DSCN8344.jpgThe rain had left a puddle in the middle of the road.  The birds were thoroughly enjoying a communal bath, undeterred by my presence.DSCN8353.jpgSome immersed themselves fully and then shook themselves fluffy.  DSCN8357.jpgOthers walked away from the puddle with confidence and returned.  Dip, fluff, repeat.DSCN8366.jpgThere was one that tried not to get wet and stretched tiny legs to stay upright.DSCN8367.jpgThe result was inevitable!DSCN8349.jpgWhile another took a break and found me the curiosity.  And, that was just fine with me!

There are times I feel I am raising the child in me to be more aware.  It is in those moments I feel like that is the intention of the reach.  If it is and makes a difference, then I have come full circle.  It is a happier place to be.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

 

 

 

 

Switched on

via Daily Prompt: Abrupt

Last night I watched a documentary on Elsa the Lioness.  I was given the first edition of the book Born Free as a young girl.  I was captivated by the story and fell madly in love with George Adamson! Then I discovered Jacques Cousteau.  When kids were talking about favourite people they would have around for dinner, and were dreaming about rock stars, my interests were conservationists.  I admired their spirit of adventure.  Of living life differently.  Their fierce commitment to Nature.  They were conservationists, but I didn’t know the meaning of the word.  Until now.

I’m now switched on.  The change in thinking was abrupt.  I’ve come to realise we don’t have to hear the message in ad breaks.  We live the message.  Like Adamson and Cousteau did.

On a recent trip to Jurien Bay I woke to watch dawn break at the beach and took it all in.  The message of plastic pollution of the oceans foremost in memory.  I wondered how I could make a difference.  Could I live more mindfully?  I realised, shopping is all about planning.  When I went home I packed a few shopping bags in the boot and was ready for another grocery trip.  I took only two cooler bags to the store and placed my shopping straight into them.  To my surprise, I was shopping mindfully.  I bought only what I could fit in.  The impulse buying was placed back on the shelf.  I checked out and found I had spent way less money than I normally would for a weekly trip.  Importantly, I had not used any single use plastic bags.  The change was so easy to put into practice.

I wondered if I could try the same strategy with money.  I use my credit card all the same and rarely use cash.  It has been a helpful strategy for business accounts.  But when reflecting on it, I realised, I have to keep receipts whether I use cash or credit card.  So why not use cash?  Now when I travel, I take just what I need in cash with my card as back up.  What a difference I’ve made in a month!  Money is the tangible proof of hard work.  When one has cash in hand, one builds a relationship with it and makes it hard to part from it.  The credit card is impersonal.

My only regret today is that I wish my learning took place earlier.  DSCN9838.jpgI often despair watching children with hand held devices.  Immersed in technology, they miss the world around them.  So when I saw a young boy wetting a line on the beach, Pacific Seagull by his side, it made me smile.  He could have been sitting in the hotel room playing video games.  But he was out here at dawn, because he enjoyed the experience of what he was doing.  He didn’t catch any fish.  It was just the enjoyment of anticipation and being near the sea.  He had a relationship with the environment.  There is hope ….DSCN9844.jpgI look at the ocean differently.  The responsibility for keeping it pristine lies with each of us.  The answer to a complex question ‘What can I do?” lies within the question.  It starts with “I …”.DSCN9861.jpgI look at the debris left behind by the tides each day.  It’s the kind that makes me happy. Like watching a child fishing at the beach, it also makes me hopeful.

The debris left by the human tide will one day, change.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

Night of the full moon

via Daily Prompt: Sleeve

With determination I completed all tasks on my list before setting off to Merredin, a small farming town to the East of Perth and over 280 km from home.  My productivity came at a cost.  I got to Northam filled with apprehension.  I still had another 160+ km to go with the sun setting within a few minutes.  I tried to quell my anxiety.  I hate driving this road in day light, let alone at dusk and dark.  Deep in the Eastern Wheatbelt, the road kill is kangaroo and fox.

I was alone on the road.  Although a major transport highway for sheep and grain, there are no street lights.  Occasionally a road train, lit up like Christmas would whoompf past me, in the opposite direction.  Then it was silent.  I was alone again.

In those few minutes between dusk and dark, the sun set behind me, painting the sky with broad strokes in vivid colours.  In front of me, just beyond a ridge, a pale gold disc rose majestically beyond it, bigger than anything I’ve seen in the city.  The full moon rose silently against a background still blue and varying shades of pink.  Like a watchful eye.   It then rested on the black bitumen way ahead of me, for a few minutes.  In the dark that sequin seduced my eye.  An Instagram moment if ever there was one.  Unfiltered.  (un)Photoshopped.  All fears shelved for a few minutes but I could not find the courage to get out of my car and take a picture.  Despite the surreal beauty of the moment, the isolation was overwhelming.  DSCN7076.jpgBetween Kellerberrin and Merredin is a parking spot where I usually stop for a few minutes to stretch my legs.  The solitary trees in the paddock and the wide open horizon, is a familiar sight.  It was dark every where, yet, the horizon was still bright.DSCN7084.jpgI left Merredin a couple of days later, with the silo paintings on my right.   They are a welcome sight by day break, but invisible by night.DSCN7089.jpgIn the dark I knew I had familiar landscape around me.  The water pipe, for one.  It carries water from Perth to the Goldfields.  It was commissioned in the late 1800s and completed in early 1900.  It is the lifeline of the people of the Goldfields.  I cannot imagine the hardship endured by the workers who constructed this for hundreds of kilometers in harsh country.  A reminder, life for me may seem challenging at times, but in comparison, I have nothing meaningful to complain about.DSCN7091.jpgAt night the air was acrid as I drove through tiny towns with streets empty of people.  Bakers Hill, Clackline, Meckering, Cunderdin, Tammin, Kellerberrin.  At times a distant glow kept me focused.  The farmers were burning paddocks in readiness for seed.  I’m impatient for winter to see some of these beige paddocks turn gold with canola.

I have never driven in regional areas at night and had it not been for circumstances, would never have thought I could.  But Nature had a trick up her sleeve that night.

With the seduction of another drive under a full moon, I just might!

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

Lessons from nature

It’s a beautiful Sunday morning.  It is typical of autumn in Perth.  I went to bed looking forward to the next day and have been up for hours.  I have a list of things to complete before heading off again.  As the end of financial year looms (June), work ramps up with invoices to submit, and extra work to be picked up before the new budget.  Being sick for three out of the four weeks in April has been a drag and I’m behind on most things.  Today is the first day I feel well and myself again.  I hope to make a small dent in what I have to complete.

My home is undergoing the second part of the renovation.  I am project managing this.  I have no idea how I fit it all in.  It is chaos in the home with nothing where it should be.  I’ve had to rely on superhuman resilience.  I take one day at a time and within the day, I have moments where I come up for air.  Like now.  I learnt this strategy from nature.  From the red cap sand plover.

The red cap sand plover is a tiny bird.  I absolutely love them!  They are very difficult to see along the shore because they blend in so well.  I found one in Lake Thetis once and always on the look out for them when I visit.  They are quick on land and scurry at great speed.  I’ve only seen one fly maybe twice in all the times I’ve photographed them.  They race across the sand, stop for a moment, feed and then repeat.  It can cover great distances this way.  If the strategy works for the red cap sand plover, surely it must work for me!

DSCN7023.jpgDuring one trip to Lake Thetis I searched for the tiny bird for over an hour and then reluctantly decided, it was not my day.  I took one last photograph of the Lake before turning around to walk away.DSCN7028.jpgThen an imperceptible movement caught my eye.  By the shore.DSCN7029.jpgIt turned around and looked straight at me!  Joy!DSCN7040.jpgThen turned away, the beautiful red cap clearly visible.DSCN7047.jpgThe stride is quick and effortless.DSCN7048The stop and stare, well, fierce comes to mind!DSCN7061.jpgThis bird is a tiny creature.  Yet, somehow, has the capacity to fill vastness by mere presence.

Some people do this, too.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

“….this moment, is your life”

via Daily Prompt: Vague

It must have been about ten years ago when I first went to Port Hedland.  Not knowing what to expect I researched the area before the trip.  To my surprise there was more to see than just Port, salt mines, and iron ore laden freight transported by rail or sea.  What did surprise me was the vivid colours of the landscape.

There is no way the mining Pilbara region up north can be described in vague terms.  What you see, is what you get.

DSCN7195.jpgIt is hot.  It is red.  It is dusty.  The sky is blue.  It is magnificent.  DSCN7210.jpgThere is a solitary tree at Spoilbank, in South Hedland.  It is my favourite view from across the water.  This is harsh country exposed to cyclones.  I love the statement it makes.  DSCN7161.jpgThe muted shades of dusk.DSCN7163.jpgThe day ends beyond (tidal) Pretty Pool.  It casts an iridescent glow.DSCN7154.jpgThe bird life at Pretty Pool is discreet.  This heron was among the mangroves.  It was barely bigger than a crow.DSCN7152.jpgWith a stretch that was amazing!DSCN9593.jpgThe tide had left a calling card.  DSCN9563.jpgMy favourite place early morning is near a church.  The eagles like it too.DSCN9559.jpgThe magnificent cargo ships glide by, often without sound.DSCN7203.jpgI’ve visited Cemetery Beach before when the turtles were hatching.  (Yes, the beach is across the cemetery!).  This time I found sculptures on shore.  The real turtles in the sea were too quick to photograph.DSCN7201.jpgA beautiful egret.  An Eastern Reef egret, I think.DSCN7207.jpgThe rugged Pilbara shore.

I had lunch with my son yesterday.  I was telling him how hot it was in Port Hedland when I was there.  I got off the flight to temperature that was 17 degrees hotter than Perth.  I was sharing with him the sights and sounds of the Pilbara when he asked how come I am still enthusiastic about work after all these years of travel.  My answer was simple.  I practice the quote from The Rubaiyat by Omar Khayyam:  “Be happy for this moment.  This moment is your life.”

It is the essence of being alive.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

Till death do us part

via Daily Prompt: Betrayed

I’ve been reflecting on the word ‘betrayed’ overnight.  Initially, I thought it was the perfect word to vent but this morning I waited patiently for dawn before writing.  It arrived as expected, in the sky, and in me.

There’s a predictability to life around me when I’m home.  The currawongs, the kookaburras, the whoosh, whoosh, whoosh of larger birds above as they fly to the lake.  The excited screeching rainbow lorikeets, flying this way and that way.  The cooing of the pair of doves that have a home in the back yard.  The sweet fluted call of the willie wagtail.  If I concentrated, the mild hum of the freeway in the far distance, before the sound of fridge took over.  I allowed each to grab my attention, intermittently.  Alone in the quiet of a big home, I did not feel betrayed, not even a hint of rancour.  I realised how blessed I am for acknowledging I had the strength to go where the journey took me.

‘Till death do us part’, is part of the wedding vows, taken literally and certainly one I was raised with but came to realise, sometimes, one ‘dies’ while still breathing and for some, that’s when the love story comes to an end.  Who ‘dies’ first is irrelevant but having the courage to move on, is.

A colleague recently mentioned, although there is sadness that my marriage ended, I have never spoken about my children’s father, with acrimony.  Perhaps, this is why they have such a good relationship with him.  I would have to agree.  I now see their father through their eyes that have been untainted by mine.  They see him as he is.  Unplugged.  They see the good in him, his humour, and still laugh and groan at his ‘dad jokes’.  I can laugh with them too, his humour, his strength and attraction.  It helps to keep the affection of early years remain warm as embers.  They are careful with their words.  They know he is sensitive, and that this is not always a strength in people.  I observe how they navigate their relationship with him.  They are more skilled at this than I but in those moments when they are less skillful, I step in and set boundaries on what can be said and when.  I do this because I have a deep sense of gratitude towards him, that runs deeper than any disappointment I may feel about what we had, and didn’t.  Together, we had children we are proud of, and it is on this common ground we have made our peace.

I’ve worked hard to practice the philosophy, what is meant to be, will be.  This commitment to healing helps others too.  The most consistent feedback I receive from people, is that I have helped them see things differently.  Baggage checked, they are free to move on.  I know I did and found …

DSCN0300The greenest growth is at the point of pruning.DSCN0998Solitary can be a powerful statement.DSCN1425I no longer look for permanence.  Transience is appealing to me.  What ebbs and flows, like the breath of life, is a gift.  We see this in tides, sometimes shells, sometimes, a forest of boab trees in the sand.  DSCN1347I also know a  boab tree is strong, and will wait like a friend, withstanding tide and time.DSCN1719At my leisure I read sea stories of ancient times, carved in stone.DSCN1705I’ve learned lessons from migratory birds in flight.  And, like them, I now travel light.DSCN1767Cauterised, I now watch the tide soothe ruffled edges, as the pindan cliffs bleed into the sea.DSCN1334My eyes scan roadside for three eyed monsters.  They help reconnect to the child in me.DSCN0647A red eye, is a ruby.DSCN1072A ball of ruffled vivid feathers is gorgeous, but …DSCN1251A single white feather, is peace.

May your Easter be one of renewal and hope.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Look away!

via Daily Prompt: Blush

I was a different person in early childhood, yet in many ways, I remain the same.

I listened.  I observed.  I must have done it well.  Friends and family know me for my silence and invisibility.  Not finding a place under their sun of accomplishments, I searched and found my own.  So I share this space with you on what life has taught me.

DSCN2051.jpgDriving through the Midwest, I realised, why settle for a bunch of flowers when I can have a paddock.  DSCN8346.jpgI’m always amazed to find pink in tough, mining towns.  On reflection, given the volatility of the industry and profession, perhaps it is Nature’s way to symbolize hope. DSCN8545.jpgEvery time I return from a trip, a neglected garden reminds me, it will continue to bloom, with or without my presence.  A helpful reminder for ego, so I take notes.thumb_DSCN8950_1024.jpgThere are no words to describe finding one’s first enamel orchid along a bush track but I’ll try.  They look shiny and plastic.  The crick in the neck from the double take was worth it!  They are breathtakingly beautiful.

thumb_DSCN9253_1024Likewise discovering that shaggy bush in Esperance, turns into a gorgeous waterfall acacia came as a surprise like no other one spring.thumb_DSCN8378_1024.jpgIf one summons enough courage to visit Lesueur National Park early mornings, when there is no one else there but Nature, the drawcard is easy to see.

thumb_DSCN9245_1024.jpgI found ‘kebabs’ of flowers there, too, so the gnawing hunger pangs make me return again and again.thumb_DSCN8971_1024.jpgPom poms along bush tracks brings out the inner cheerleader, I never knew resided in me.thumb_DSCN9490_1024.jpgThere’s infinite joy when a small bird allows you to keep it company.thumb_DSCN8906_1024.jpgIn a still moment, unadorned simplicity, is where Nature does it best.thumb_DSCN8959_1024.jpgThere’s a certain beauty to waiting before bloom.  (I wish I knew this in my youth).thumb_DSCN9004_1024.jpgRice crackers are found on the beach, if you look for them hungrily.thumb_DSCN9016_1024.jpgThe sand dunes are not an obstruction between me and the ocean.thumb_DSCN9022_1024They are made from tiny shells and quartz.  Each piece infinitesimal and exquisite.thumb_DSCN8641_1024.jpgA pesky weed is beautiful too.

These are things I didn’t know then, but do now.  The thought makes me blush with shame.

So look past my ignorance.

I’ll be back once I’ve found focus and share life, as I know it, through my lens again.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Mother and me

via Daily Prompt: Wrinkle

Having flown two awful flights, one where there was problems with an engine mid flight, I was somewhat apprehensive catching another flight to this region.

Being a small twin engine turbo, the pilot and co-pilot greet passengers as they board and disembark, a personal signature touch of the airline.  This time the pilot looked like she had just graduated from high school.  Her youth heightened my anxiety.

It was late afternoon when we landed after a surprisingly pleasant flight.  I shared this with the pilot and thanked her.  When she grinned, she looked even younger.

The sun was low in the sky.  The drive into town is around 23 kms.  I drove steadily and then stopped for a few minutes at a reserve before it was too dark.  I needed quiet, even if it was for a minute or two.  The birds had long been silenced by sunset.  I sat  taking it all in when an imperceptible movement caught my eye.DSCN9437.jpgI did a double take and zoomed in.  I wasn’t alone!  My heart pounded in excitement.DSCN9438.jpgI zoomed in as slowly as I could.DSCN9440.jpgAnd, closer, again.DSCN9442.jpgAnd again.

She stood silently, all doe-eyed and twitching velvet ears.

I was thrilled to see her.  The reserve was damaged by a bush fire a few years ago and although the flora and birds have returned, I hadn’t seen any kangaroos.  I made a mental note.  One more thing to watch out for.DSCN9443.jpgThe next morning, I headed out to the reserve again.  The air was alive with tweets and flapping wings of the larger birds over the lake.

I inched my car slowly, silently winching at the crunch of wheels on gravel that sounded deafening when I wanted quiet.

Either she didn’t hear me (I doubt that!) but she did not disappear from sight.  She stayed and nursed joey, before they bounded into the scrub.

I headed to work, carrying the memory, in the wrinkle at the corner of my eyes.

Until next time

As always

a dawn bird

 

 

 

 

 

Ah ha!

via Daily Prompt: Grasp

Psychologists wait for ‘ah ha’ moments in therapy, when things start to make sense.  So I thought I’d share my therapeutic encounters with you.

DSCN5692.jpgI’ve found mother and child stay together, as long as necessary for survival.DSCN5670.jpgWait long enough, tide and time will make rocks crumble.DSCN5675.jpgWhen exploited, the earth bleeds red.DSCN5509.jpgIn the harsh Pilbara mining region, if you look hard enough, there is an oasis outside the door.DSCN5448.jpgAnd in the red dust of the Goldfields, nuggets are found in the scrub.DSCN9554.jpgA Wheatbelt sunset is more beautiful, when a solitary silhouette gives it perspective.DSCN9627.jpgWake early enough, the party has started with a festoon of pink galahs on gum trees.DSCN5389.jpgIn the Midwest, the white heron is always poised.DSCN5421.jpgBut the pelican can have an inelegant moment or three.DSCN9731.jpgIn Esperance, the solitary seek the sea, as friend.DSCN9960.jpgOnce past prime, a flower is still beautiful, when it hits the pavement.DSCN9984.jpgWhen admonishment is necessary, the Willie Wagtail is never far away.  DSCN5655.jpgIf one’s lucky, the sea eagle may look you straight in the eye.

In those mindful moments, what I didn’t know then, I know now.

It is an undeniable truth.  Nature has me in her grasp.

 

Until next time

a dawn bird